“Always Preparing”
I’m not gonna beg you for a life you didn’t give;
so if you’re gonna kill me, I don’t have all day, or just let me live.
How do I sleep at nights knowing there’s a knife at my throat? I’d rather be sure there was, than to wander whether or not there is.
A squatter in my own home for you?
Why don’t you let me work your streets? “I can make you feel brand new.”
Also, why didn’t you come back with me? Forgive me, I couldn’t wait for you.
I don’t see and pigeons disturbing the blue sky, I don’t get my weekly telegram.
With all the pleasure she possesses, someone should softly suck her off as soon as she land.
At that time I wasn’t exactly a Christian.
I was morally flexible but never again.
This one time I thought you were gonna finish yourself for real;
I want you to know how much I love you, I also love myself and time will heal.
We were the kids nobody could help.
We couldn’t help ourselves.
There was mischief in our eyes.
There was some truth to our lies,
The bodies you brought however few, felt like a friend presenting enemies.
May you remember how much you ruined our lives.
Every-time you saw me there was heaven in your eyes.
Working over time to get back to you, see the weights below my eyes like a catheter bag?
A new love? You should not boast or brag over that dirty rag
All women are evil and all men are bad
All women are angels and all men are gods
Standing back in time just to watch you cry,
I’ll drink your tears,
Be the reason you fear,
I wish they would stop breathing so I could once again be yours
ryzoncity
2025
End.